Wholehearted

It's an interesting thing that lately, as I have been ferreting out a lot of strange inner-life issues, something else has emerged simultaneously. I am more committed to our life here and specifically our work at Vintage than I have ever been. I truly believe that this is what God wants us to do. I think that this past year was a long process of seeing how much this venture would cost us...not just financially, but in friendships, in the support of our families, in personal comfort. And I have mourned those things...loudly and long. Had we known up front that we would experience such loss, I doubt we would have had the courage to try. Now, with a clear picture of all that starting Vintage has cost us, I can honestly say, it's okay. As each week goes by, I see more clearly the great need of the people here (and everywhere) for a church like Vintage. And maybe more importantly, how much I need Vintage. I could never go back to the girl I was a year ago....and I wouldn't want to. I've often said that God proved how amazing He is by saving me out of Bible college. Now, I am amazed again as He has grown me by taking me out of "church" as I knew it.