Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Being a Christian is exhausting sometimes....

I know that whole phrase is just pepppered with bad theology, but I started out this morning, desperately seeking some serenity and I had this idea to make a private blog just for prayer....I know somebody out there is having a coniption...but the kids will leave me be if I am typing, but they won't leave me alone if I am "just sitting." So anyway, I decided to try it, thought I could throw something together quickly now and tweak it later....ended up trying to name it something that has already been used, checked out the other blogs by the names I wanted to use, checked out some of their links....ended up seeing another blog I have seen before that is proports itself as being all "Spurgeon, Edwards, Tozer" but is REALLY mean-spririted....and is frequently made fun of by the clever kids at Addison Road, who probably also go way too far....and that's when it hit me....

I just wanted to pray.

Instead I got overwhelmed again with the negativity. Really, the open animosity between the two sites I mentioned above, which frankly characterize the essential nature of what I'm doing with my life and the tension that exists in my own relationships, not to mention my desperate desire to just relate to God in some semblance of order....

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That was Vinny. He just crawled up in my lap and asked me what i was doing. I tried to explain it all to him, and he said, "Does Jesus like that?"

I told him that Jesus wants us to be concerned about truth, but He also wants us to be kind to one another. After all, we're supposed to be known for our love for one another, not how intact our theological views are. After all, people are observing us...

...little people who just want me to hold them on my lap and be a part of what I'm doing....

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yeah, what he said.

3 comments:

mla said...

I love you, Vinnie -- enough to cry when I read your profound writing!!!

courtney said...

I had that same day yesterday....mine was the "try-to-get-as-much-done-as-possible" day and all Dora wanted was for me to sit down and be Mommy, not Mommy-the-pastry-chef. Which got me thinking about how she won't be little like this forever and it's gonna be a long time before I'll have another little person running around. So, we sat down to toasted cheese sands. and talked about our day and she was fine...and I was better than fine because I knew I'd finally gotten something accomplished in my day that meant more than cookies and truffles in a belly. I love being a mom but sometimes I forget that it's a calling to be the best mom I can be.

Sara said...

there sure is a bigger picture to life than just the nitty gritty.

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