Saturday, June 05, 2010

Hoping For Summer

Today will be a dress rehearsal for summer.   The kids have one last day of school on Monday before we delve into a whole new schedule.   For the kids, it means relaxing and having no have-to's. For mom, it means three extra people in the 6 hours I have had all to myself for the last 9 months.  Guess who is most likely to be cranky?

So before I even get out of bed today, I am going to try to steer myself and perhaps the children toward a vision for our time together....

I still have plenty of work to do.  Teaching the kids what I do can be fun when I am willing to slow down and apprentice them.  My skills are practical for them to know and they are old enough to be a part.

I need fun and exercise as much as they do.   That's what the pool and the yard and the bikes and the garden is for.

The pool is like a giant kid magnet.  There are a lot of neighbors to get to know.  The many Marshallese names are hard for my mid-western tongue to re-tell, but they are all people I need to know.   And the open and closed sign for the gate needs to be made soon so that hurt feelings and frustrations don't even get a chance to start.

I'd like to bring back naptime.  That could be a great thing.

There's no doubt I've gotten selfish over the past few months.  I don't want to be a selfish mom.  That's not pretty.

This is a very stilted post.  I have been very busy and external in the last month, especially with Robb gone.  I have been just "getting through" not really living intentionally or being present.  I don't want to just "get through" the summer with the kids.  I want to live with them and be present.  I need to slow down and get back in touch with what really matters.  I'm glad they they are going to be here. 

Here's to summer.

3 comments:

betty crocker said...

Oh are these ever my thoughts as well! The age-gap between the girls is making fun for Dora hard though and that leaves me feeling guilty at the end of the day. But I want her to have a great summer--making the trip to PA really important to me.
It's so easy to fill a day up when we are list-makers with goals. I'm trying to make "fun time" part of my list.

Holly said...

I truly appreciated this post for many reasons. I love being reminded to live intentionally. I had a baby less than 2 weeks ago and am very much in survival mode. But am trying to be intentional with my time with my oldest because it's so important for both of us. I LOVE the idea of your open/closed pool sign esp. since your reasoning is to make sure others feel included in the "party".

Anyway, what a great, intentional-minded post today.

ness said...

Hi Holly! Have we met? We seem to be kindred spirits!

only, I'm not as organized as I would like to be. : )

Good luck in survival... It's an okay place to be for awhile!

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