Today will be a dress rehearsal for summer. The kids have one last day of school on Monday before we delve into a whole new schedule. For the kids, it means relaxing and having no have-to's. For mom, it means three extra people in the 6 hours I have had all to myself for the last 9 months. Guess who is most likely to be cranky?
So before I even get out of bed today, I am going to try to steer myself and perhaps the children toward a vision for our time together....
I still have plenty of work to do. Teaching the kids what I do can be fun when I am willing to slow down and apprentice them. My skills are practical for them to know and they are old enough to be a part.
I need fun and exercise as much as they do. That's what the pool and the yard and the bikes and the garden is for.
The pool is like a giant kid magnet. There are a lot of neighbors to get to know. The many Marshallese names are hard for my mid-western tongue to re-tell, but they are all people I need to know. And the open and closed sign for the gate needs to be made soon so that hurt feelings and frustrations don't even get a chance to start.
I'd like to bring back naptime. That could be a great thing.
There's no doubt I've gotten selfish over the past few months. I don't want to be a selfish mom. That's not pretty.
This is a very stilted post. I have been very busy and external in the last month, especially with Robb gone. I have been just "getting through" not really living intentionally or being present. I don't want to just "get through" the summer with the kids. I want to live with them and be present. I need to slow down and get back in touch with what really matters. I'm glad they they are going to be here.
Here's to summer.