Wednesday, September 09, 2009

He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not

Been having a couple of days that felt like God really didn't like me. Pee. Overdrafts. Unexpected bills of unusual size. Hubby on a business trip. Rain. Dental work. Etsy headaches. The dog ate my favorite knickers. Seriously, like God had raised his eyebrow and put me in the corner for some misdeed I wasn't conscious of.

And then something wonderful happened.

Video. Chat.

I saw my Beloved's face. It was like he was here. I made dinner while we chatted. The kids all competed for the screen. I fluttered around and picked up and put on a little makeup. And I felt so much better. Not nearly as alone. Not nearly as tragic. It's just money. We've never been rich. Never gonna be. But we have each other.

The kids ate their tomato soup that I made from scratch. Okay, that I made from some cans of this and that. Point being, it was good and it was cheap, just like we like it.

They went outside to play for a few minutes and I clicked in to check the store and lo and behold, I had made the front page. That is still rare enough to keep me feeling cheered up for a little while.

So maybe God does love me. A little bit.

: )


12-arrows said...

He loves you alot, my friend, its in the toughest times we really see His face, feel his presence, and allowed His grace. You are a blessing to me and I'm so thankful you continually share your heart. Praying God continues to show His faithfulness, even when it seems like He doesn't care.

Sara said...

HE definately loves you :)

Amy said...

And congrats on making the front page! Awesome!

Life with Kaishon said...

I can't really comment like I usually do since I am still so sad about your loss. I am glad you have Rob. I am glad you have love. That makes me very, very happy.

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