Thursday, March 16, 2006

Of PAPA Prayers and PMS

I have been absent from my blog for a couple of days and fell asleep last night composing this post, which had this title. I now can't remember why exactly, but it was really, really clever. And you apparently were sucked in by it...

Ever since I started reading this book Hubby recommended I have been reeling. I keep trying to get a hold of it, but so far, I am just overwhelmed. I have had seasons of good prayer, but mostly, it's been less than stellar. I know some really great pray-ers, and I hear them describe it and know that I am have been missing something. This book came into my life because of the vacuum created from my Lenten fast from ebay. I think God has been orchestrating events to get me to understand Him better and I'm deeply grateful that He has pursued me this way.

While Larry Crabb would never claim to have come up with something new, he has put to into words something that really makes sense to me. I deeply appreciate how starkly honest he is in the book about how he really felt about his prayer life and how I feel too...which is guilty, bored, and a little annoyed that it hasn't worked better before. And while I still can't actually pray just yet, because I'm so overwhelmed at how badly I have been doing it, I feel really hopeful that I might sometime very soon be able to really have a conversational relationship with my Father in heaven that doesn't feel like I'm just talking to myself. I'm usually afraid to do new things that I will probably not do well at, but I am excited at the prospect of this. I think something very good is on the horizon.

This post is not very clever, but it is my first stumbling attempt at trying to tell you that something big is happening.

5 comments:

Darla said...

thank you for being real.... i needed some realness in my life today.... more than you know! ;)

Christine said...

Nessie, thank you for bringing that book up! I hadn't heard of it, before, and am hoping it will bring others to that thirst for reaching God.
I didn't realize it was so far down on grenz's entries, and left comments at the Papa Prayer post, expressing my gratitude and all that, which I guess no one will ever see (ah, well)!

But thanks for telling about this book~ looking forward to getting my little hands on it!

mukeyjoy said...

Hey Girl! The lent from sweets is still going. Not easy, but sticking w/ it. I tell ya, if I was just giving it up for me I would have definately cheated by now!! There's a sweets demon living in me that wants out sometimes!!! How's the ebay thing? Making it? You have an ebay demon in you? Man!! Hard to not just give in to what you want isn't it? Keep in touch!!

bina said...

"I feel really hopeful that I might sometime very soon be able to really have a conversational relationship with my Father in heaven that doesn't feel like I'm just talking to myself."

You have a way of putting into words the very real feelings others have. I can totally relate here. I'll have to check out that book.

court said...

Hey, Girl, "big things" here too. Definately moving in June/july to either Pittsburgh or Cleveland. Told the boss yesterday
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