Of PAPA Prayers and PMS

I have been absent from my blog for a couple of days and fell asleep last night composing this post, which had this title. I now can't remember why exactly, but it was really, really clever. And you apparently were sucked in by it...

Ever since I started reading this book Hubby recommended I have been reeling. I keep trying to get a hold of it, but so far, I am just overwhelmed. I have had seasons of good prayer, but mostly, it's been less than stellar. I know some really great pray-ers, and I hear them describe it and know that I am have been missing something. This book came into my life because of the vacuum created from my Lenten fast from ebay. I think God has been orchestrating events to get me to understand Him better and I'm deeply grateful that He has pursued me this way.

While Larry Crabb would never claim to have come up with something new, he has put to into words something that really makes sense to me. I deeply appreciate how starkly honest he is in the book about how he really felt about his prayer life and how I feel too...which is guilty, bored, and a little annoyed that it hasn't worked better before. And while I still can't actually pray just yet, because I'm so overwhelmed at how badly I have been doing it, I feel really hopeful that I might sometime very soon be able to really have a conversational relationship with my Father in heaven that doesn't feel like I'm just talking to myself. I'm usually afraid to do new things that I will probably not do well at, but I am excited at the prospect of this. I think something very good is on the horizon.

This post is not very clever, but it is my first stumbling attempt at trying to tell you that something big is happening.